Look at each detail of Life
with the Simplicity, Kindness, Presence
of the eyes and heart of a child and
Live life in the moment that isn’t past or future.
From the Notebook: Sardinia, March 1st, 2015
At the seashore … sitting on rocks … on a winter day. Waves are coming close to me, touching the smooth white stones and making them roll over each other, creating the most distinctive music. I close the eyes … I feel this music inside … inside the brain … in the veins … inside the heart. Each one of the cells reverberates in this nothingness.
I keep writing while I am living this creation … I see three birds flying, freely in the skies. The sun is warming up this body and it is shining through the hundreds of white stones that are reflecting back its light. Creation is expressing itself in a thousand colors, sounds and scents.
My intention today was to write about fear and yet … now … in this now … I don’t have words. In a state like this, in these light vibrations, fear doesn’t exist.
Like the waves, the stones …. the three birds … I am free, free in this present moment.
Yes! We do not fear when we are present; and only when we are in presence we do truly LIVE!
While I find myself in that line of light, where in the horizon the skies are entangled with the waters … the wind takes a flight, comes closer and whispers in my ear:
‘Each time that fear comes have the Courage to enter the labyrinth that fear has created, find the beginning of the thread. Step by step unveil the imagination. Keep following the thread with Patience and Faith, until you will start seeing the Light and you will find the way out, out from a labyrinth that is not real. Outside that labyrinth there is Clarity and Love and where there is Love there is not fear.’
Do not fear and LIVE!
Yes! LOVE and LIVE.
It is January 9 and I am still here in America.
The moon is high in the sky and the sun has not yet risen. Among the bare winter trees I can hear the wind talking … I see the snow making all roofs white and I hear cars in the distance …
Life goes on.
There is a feeling of being in a dream … in front of everything that is happening … in this moment that looks surreal.
Did it ever happen to you to receive some news, on a day that you thought would be like any other, and instead those news have changed you completely? You received such a shock that life suddenly acquires a completely different meaning.
It was December 29, Monday morning, and I was in my friend’s car, both were going to a meeting. Between one word and another I get a message. Our friend, Anna, is at the emergency room, hospitalized for a stabbing pain on her back.
That morning I got up imagining how the day would go and now I find myself in the car and the direction that the day is taking is completely different from what I had imagined!
In less than half hour, four of my friends and myself, instead of being at the meeting are at the hospital, looking into each other eyes and wondering about the meaning of that severe back pain. In our minds we think that soon, in the same day, Anna will be back home.
Again the imagination had failed!
One doctor after another, exams, questions … Anna comes in and out of that room, above a trundle-bed, after each examination, increasingly worried about the pain and what is going on. Each time the incredulous gaze of her eyes is meeting with ours. Anna is not understanding what is happening the same as each one of us. Our common aim from the beginning is to help, to support and ‘relieve’ her pain with our ‘smiling’ presence, until she has the first injection of morphine.
A few hours pass and the door opens for the umpteenth time. A doctor comes in and her mouth starts speaking words that one after the other are forming an unexpected news … unsettling for Anna and all of us. Tumor masses were detected at different levels including the spine.
We are silent. Anna starts talking with tears in her eyes, almost not believing the words that she had heard. We are around her, each of us in a state of presence, trying to find harmony between the thousand thoughts that are invading the sky like wings of fear. It is the first fight that see myself having faith and accepting what it is. Personally I start living many difficult and yet special moments. I know how important it is to stay present and maintain a positive attitude, not allowing my mind to bath into the shores of negative imagination about the future. That is my goal: to support my friend, reminding her and especially reminding myself, to live constantly in the present moment, to live the moments one after another, believing in the miracle and hoping that the miracle that I am praying for corresponds to the divine will.
In the afternoon I pass several hours alone with Anna, from a corridor to another of that big hospital in New York, waiting for the clearing of a room in the oncology department. We talk about many things, especially trying to understand the connection between the masses, quite important, at the level of the spine and the emotions buried in them!
A first obvious emotion that comes out is that Anna for many years had felt unsupported by the family and had suffered intensely for this. Now that spine that was supporting the body was suffering and was screaming in pain.
In the hallway of the hospital that afternoon, I speak to Anna … both of us trying to understand the evolution of the disease. “The spine is the support of the body and you didn’t feel supported. In time, the pain rooted creating embedded parts which are now old and rotten and must be eradicated. Your arms right now cannot move freely because the pain and they cannot embrace what life is offering. You are blocked. There is insecurity and doubts about what it will be. Opportunities are constantly coming and are telling us to forgive and create new relationships with ourselves and others. The child that exists in us needs Love. It’s time to heal from all that is related to the past, cutting the cords of energy and becoming free. We have to become complete through the Light and Love that come directly from the source and that want to shine freely through all the cells of the body. There is a whisper of sacred words in the air that reaches the cells … there is the hope that they can regenerate to a new life. “
In the past few years, how many times I have personally realized that emotions ‘buried alive’ may resurface at some point, screaming for help to be freed and ‘enlightened’ !!!
How many times the body silently screams in pain, until, if it is not heard in time, generates disease.
Oh, if only we could hear and listen and constantly let go …!
From the notebook : November 4, 2013
Here in Sardinia, in these last months, many times I found myself sitting on ancient rocks, observing the sea, remembering some words from my Teacher Mervyn.
“We are terrified of letting go, terrified of living
Since learning to live is learning to let go
Let go, Let go, Let go, or you will hurt.”
An extra effort is needed to let go of ‘things’ that can create lower energy and a state of heaviness.
We are so used of living with heavy garments, covering what in its essence wants to be ‘naked’ at the Light of the Sun!
Yes, it is so ‘strange’ for us to go around ‘naked’, to just Be, to live from the Heart, in the simplicity of its miracle, to just Be and live expanding in Love.
I have Faith that each moment comes with opportunities that are leading us to expand more in freedom, like the Ocean, like the Skies. Often the same play is repeating itself until we will be able to see more. When we are able to keep the state of Presence, living as more as possible in the lightness of the Now where everything IS, we will be guided to use the right tools and to finally cut those cords that are not allowing the letting go of things.
That ‘letting go‘ is one of the keys that can open many doors.
Sometimes, if something related to the past or future is showing itself in the theater of the mind, I acknowledge it… I breathe… I see what I have still to learn and then I embrace it with Acceptance and Compassion. I Forgive myself and others. I drink from the chalice of Peace. With Humility I allow the letting go and the flow in the infinite Light of the Whole.
At times it is not easy with all of them, some stay longer creating friction and pain and yet…
learning to live is learning to let go!
We are energy in constant flow and when we are holding ‘things’ we are just giving attention to the mind and that mechanical part of us. More we hold of things and more energy will be stuck, stagnating, there will be no flow and opening for all other possibilities that are Here Now for Us.
I am verifying that it is not easy to keeping letting go and I am observing that at times there is a sort of ‘friction in between cells’ almost felt at the heart level and yet that friction is felt and lasting less and less as the practice goes on.
Yes, Let Go and Live.
And when the letting go happens, there is the opening of a space for stillness, silence, Peace, Love and in that state the old dies and something new is born, like in the shore… like with the waves that come and go… returning to the ocean.
And there is understanding, opening, a sense of circulation of Light and Love inside the veins… inside the cells… inside the heart.
Everything becomes lighter…
Presence is the Perfect Antidote, the pill that cures all diseases.
It is the Way to Freedom from all cages.
It is the Now where I become Free from past and future.
It is the Beat of the Heart where there is no fear, only Love.
It is the Touch of the Soul where I can reach the Sun, the Sea, the Wind and the Grain of Sand.
It is the Breath of the Spirit where I become One with Them.
It is the Moment where Everything Is and I Am.
Each moment of life is a gift given to us.
Often we take it for granted instead than being consciously grateful for it.
The days or years that we live are gifts and opportunities for us
to expand in the outer world, becoming Real.
Do we really know with certainty, at the sunrise of each day,
that we will be able to see the sunset of that same day?
A moment comes after another and yet we do not know about the next.
Almost every day we start the day thinking that we know already what it is going to be, we imagine it.
We often live the moment thinking about the future or the past .
In this way life is just slipping away under our thoughts and mechanical actions.
It is important to find the way for living a real life and being consciously grateful for it.
There are moments in life that come with shocks and suddenly there is a deepening in what is Real, everything like a miracle is sought under a different light and a different scale.
Shocks can create a rumbling vibration and the whole valley of life starts quaking.
If we are embracing them with consciousness, shocks come as gifts and opportunities to transform what is old and rotten, to eradicate the old roots and plaint new seeds.
In our inner gardens there are seasons and the aim is to create a Garden of Heaven with an eternal Spring, where the Light is constantly shining and Love is nourishing the Garden.
We ask for Miracles and they are given to us constantly if we can recognize them.
Often we can go through imagination even about the way miracles will manifest.
We just have to be humbly open to receive what it is given to us, having Faith that what is written in the Books of Life is what we need .
There is the Will of God, a divine plan and we can aim to fulfill that unknown plan, living life in Gratitude, Love and Light and being open to receive Miracles.
In this New Year let’s remember to be grateful for each moment that is given to us and to expand in it as if it was the last gift!
We don’t have to wait for a Big Gift ,
yet we have to discover the Greatness of Life in each moment that we live.
There is a continuous flow and it is wonderful when we live in that sort of abandonment and faith. No resistance, yet confident in those currents that will lead us where we should go, especially if the helm is the heart and the soul is guiding it. Especially if, when looking at our thoughts, we are not identified with them, yet we observe them, letting go of those linked to fears, doubts, judgments and imagination.
Thoughts … We can create many thoughts and they can create many new chains or strengthen the existing ones!
Only when we live in Presence it is like living in a house of pure crystal and those thoughts that are heavier are felt as bundles of denser energy that touch one of the glass walls and are rejected. Many thoughts come with the vibration of fear and, unless we realize that, they can permeate and completely change the state in which we live.
Living in a house of pure crystal is a blessing, it is as if we are living in continuity in a state of Harmony and Light. The weather can still change on the outside. Strong winds can make the walls vibrate as well as major hurricanes. But over time we will use the right tools so that the crystal house always remains as a harmonic case. Porous walls will allow the flow of the giving and receiving and yet they can repel and not absorb anything that is heavier.
Life becomes like a stage. Each one of us plays their own notes; the same is for nature, animals … or the wind or the sun … the sea and the lands.
Each being has a Divine Essence. We meet, reflecting each other in the smile and in the glance, in the heart and soul. There is the possibility of expanding one in the Light of the other, recognizing the intrinsic Beauty and Purity, expanding in a Light that goes beyond what is unknown and yet … Known.
Joy is born inside and allows us to See Beauty in each detail of Creation.
In a state of Joy the essence of each cell dances with enthusiasm
at the sound of the most vibrant music played from the heart.
We are grateful for everything that Is … just the way It Is …
not asking for more than opening and expanding in Gratitude.
Joy can come for one moment and yet
In Presence Joy lasts for Eternity.
The external surroundings can change,
yet Presence, Love, Joy, Harmony, Simplicity, Kindness, Faith,
exist beyond the surroundings.
I can be living in a cave or in the most amazing castle and that doesn’t create difference for what I Am.
The True Self exists beyond space and time, always Here and Real.